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would encounter straight peers who would laughingly reminisce about their terror of failing Mark Highland's ethics class or about the time they broke curfew and were grounded during the basketball championships. But I would want to talk about how many times I thought of ending my life because of the "monster" that was growing inside. I would want to talk about how alone I felt in the midst of their laughter.
I remember my college yars as an ordeal rather than an opportunity. That's not to say I didn't have fun in college. It was at Marquette that I learned to drink beer and to stay up all night playing bridge. But as was true
fear I would be confronted with the memories of a Brian I barely recognize; a Brian whose anguish continues to anger me and whose awkwardness I have tried to forget. Held securely in the memory of others, he was a man the woman murmered was unattainable. Intensely religious, highly energetic, anxious to please, he was a puzzle unsolved even by myself. His sophomore year he cooperated in the purging of the fraternity pledgemaster who was accused of being "queer." As a junior he fumbled through a homosexual encounter in the dorm and spent the next two years dreaming about the man at night and avoiding him during the day. As a senior, with only one such
her mother and Paulette ever straightened out John, my n eed at a reunion would be to pull people into the past and confront them with my unresolved anguish. Only then would the women know why I never kissed them at the door like the other boys did, why one day I would propose marriage and the next announce I was entering the monastery; why my moods changed faster than Al Maguire could get thrown out of a basketball game. If they could see and understand that, then I would be able to laugh about the time we staged a food strike.
As is probably true for many people, there are at least two of me in history. There is the Brian
who wore the costume and one who ripped it off. There is Brian who made noises distract attention and the who now wants to talk ab being gay. There is the Brian v met other's expectations and Brian who struggles with own. I don't understand wh had to go through those pair experiences but I don't hate other Brian any more than caterpillar hates the butterfly
Today, however, instead investing my energies attem ing to reconcile the differen for those "who knew me when prefer to spend my time work to make sure those gay peo who follow this generation ne not be as alienated by th youth.
for most gay men and women I experience under his belt, he What Christians owe gays
achieved peace by promising he would never sleep with a man he
know, college was more significantly a frightening and insecure time dominated by self-liked. hate, pretending and paranoic racting.
That's my history at Marquette, and while I'm curious if Pat ever
Were to return to Milwaukee, I got a job, Pam ever confronted
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discussed by two evangelists
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The Bible does not happen to mention the possibility of a permanent, committed love relationship between those who are homosexual.
To several questions about homosexuality left unanswered by the Bible, the authors insist, Christians are obliged to work hard at figuring out the answers, and all too many Christians are too lazy mentally to do so.
All too many Christians refuse to extend their knowledge of homosexuality beyond idle superstition, and all too many make this failure at Christian love worse by claiming that idle superstition is Christianity.
Such Christians, the auth suggest, judge in a manner t will bring judgment down up themselves.
A reading of Is the Homose ual My Neighbor? suggests th more people should be readil the Bible more to be better ab to see through those who clai to represent its contents.
Talking a lot about somethir does not mean that the talker hi a deep knowledge of it.
Reading words, and eve memorizing them, does n mean that a person has bothere to understand them.
Biblical quotations from Chri tians engaging in anti-gay acti ity tend to be all too similar 1 Biblical quotations from traine parrots.
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